a little time for myself....

phew... a little time for myself....skrg nk ngadap pasokon bkn main nye susah...kwn2 jgn tertipu ye ngan facebook/skype yg sentiasa o9 tu...that's just my pasokon that likes tu turn ITSELF on... I kid you not...kita tekan shut down dia leh hidup blk sendiri... this prob sejak masa kat nihon lg...it's nothing new...as long as it can still be turned on.... dell merahku ini lah yg akan tetap disisi...

skrg pun hubby dearie tgh tdokan wewefff dlm buai a.k.a endoi as he calls it... weweff..nama glamour harith hahaha...punyalah tak mo panggil nama cm tu konon nk panggil nama skema jek...tak jd....haha..tapi susah tul la...kita bg nama Harith with a 'th' kan but ada jgk people panggil dia haris with an 's'...seb baik haris pun maksud dia pun bagus...kdg tersasul panggil ariff...but that one pun has a good meaning...so all is well

anyway, i requested kt hubby...minggu ni tak mo blk kulim leh tak? i wanna stay home...wanna kemas2 since kontena finally sampai after 3 and a half months...wanna read my buku cte.. want to cook2...want to berkelah ngan colleagues kat bayan bay....haa...yg last tu main sebenarnya....gara2 geram hubby ikut dept dia gi mkn durian sorg2 n then bila dk2 blanking ajk i g...dia ada eval lak...so cannot go...sbb sapa nk handle harith masa I drive to blk pulau....klu dia ngamuk2 sorg2 kt blakang sapa nk soothe dia...so this time bila ada group ajak berkelah..i put down my foot and said I WANT TO GO....

n mlm ni ngadap blog sat...before I sit down with the bills to do my 家計簿 a hobby of mine since kat fukui lg...tp berbulan dah x gerak...x sempat2... so tak bley nk track our expenses... i used to call this hobby 'main2 excel' when skype ngan hubby and he asked me what i was doing.... tp bukan makin terror pun pki excel...kt ctu gaks...still a lot more to learn...

work is as usual...work....ada it's up and downs... but the more i get used to it...the more i realise i need to learn...baru dpt satu ...dr satu tu you nmpk 10 lg yg u kena tau... i wonder..klu 1st job as QA..lps ni klu i kaisha len stuck as QA lg kai? ohhh my....

that's all for now kot...nk pi wat gantt chart....

tup tap tup tap dah 6 weeks...

Ww18 ~ wW24...
tup tap tup tap dh 6 weeks...dh 2 kali dpt gaji (we get paid twice a month)....hmmm and how do i find working life?
well lets just say dpd 6 weeks tu adalah dlm 2~3 hari je yg saya blh terasa 'I like my job'..that's only what 2.38 % of the time.... but as my mom says...that's what you call ' working life'...At least ada jugak kan days when i like it...tak de 100% hate my job...

It's just that now weekends seem so far away...and when they come they seem to be over in a flash...
So far baru blk Kajang...what about Kulim...almost every  week... we've only spent the weekend at home twice kot sejak pindah Penang ni...so you do the math...

About work...well I'm attached to the QA department in charge of incoming quality control... I've got one colleague who keeps telling me ' Your job is the easiest in the QA dept'....and at first I just brushed it aside...but he keeps repeating the same thing saying his job is really demanding what with dealing with customers and so on. I'd just like to say here that..yes I know your job is demanding and maybe a bit tricky...but who's to say mine isn't... semua og punya keje ada part senang ada part susah kan....

I remember the first few weeks we started work... the kohais who happened to start work the same time we did were all grumbling as was I... I would sometimes come home thinking 'jd PT (technician) kan best...kerja 4 hari cuti 3 hari...kerja 3 hari cuti 4 hari...but then can i live with their wages? and yes kerja PT ni bukannya senang sgt...lenguh kaki wey.... yg duk kt blanking lak mau sakit tgn duk but keja unstick2 tu... No..no...no..evry job ada pros and cons dia...So  what I have to do now is just get used to the idea that there's no easy job... jd suri rumah pun susah people.... been there done that... dh lh masa tu tak de anak lg... bila dah ada baby lg mencabar jdnya..

I find the most challenging aspects of my job being the management of my subordinates, making on the spot decisions and writting emails... writing emails...alah kacang je...ye tak... ye kot... but from my standpoint... the 'over think' side of me comes into play...and a simple email becomes something so burdeoning... am I using the right tone of voice so as to not kecikkan hati the customer? am i devulging any company trade secrets?... the list goes on...

But enough about work.. what about my family life?
Well Harith just turned 4 months... finally learned to meniarap when he was 3months 19 days old..after much grunting, failing and tears... we finally got to witness it the 3rd time..( the first n second time my MIL yg jd saksi..kitorg tgh keje...oh sedey..tp apakan daya)

Harith ni mahal sgt senyumanya...a very serious baby.he spends most of his time observing with dahi berkerut and bibir terjueh....hahahah...

And he's finally found his hands..but he can't grab anything yet...and dh pandai isap jari if he doesn't get his milk fast enough...

Oh ya...remember the the things isaid i wanted to avoid...let's just say i've kinda failed everything...
- nk avoid formula milk... Harith kluar2 dh kena sumbat formula...start umur dia 1 n 1/2 months dh campur breastmilk and formula milk...
- nk avoid pakai puting....huh this one pun fail after much coercian from my mommy...tp Harith bukan baby  yg nk sgt kt puting..he only takes it masa nak tdo...tu pun not all the time
- nk kurangkan pki diapers...nk pakai  cloth diapers..Harith br ada satu..that one because of the tight purse strings...insyaAllah nanti mama belikan lg ye..
- the only one that's left is tak pki buai or endoi..this one pun dah goyang dah.... my mom dh lama cucuk2...but last weekend i put Harith in the endoi at my MIL's house...oh my ...senang nya nk bg dia tdo..
I know2... I shouldn't use it as a shortcut...but susah sgt nk bg dia tdo...evry night is a struggle..and I end exhausted even b4 I leave for work... so yes I forfeit... weekend ni nk pi pinjam my SIL's endoi...let's see how it goes... I really need the sleep...

Harith ` 3mths ++ with Abah...

Let'S feel good about ourselves today

I'm not a fan of self help books...I tend to think that they are quite repetitive..and in the end makes me feel worse about myself...

However, I think they got it right when they were talking about smiles...
F san ( my 'dearest' senior) smiled at lab today...smiled because of what, you ask..sbb the chemicals for our collaborative research with Daido dah sampai...macam budak baru dapat present..he reverently took out one bottle after another..smilling this bright smile...kalau chemical je yang sampai happy cam tu, jikken souchi dah siap nanti dunno lah happy tahap mana dia...well any way his happiness berjangkit to me an despite the various problems i'm trying to conquer...today seems like a beautiful day...a day to feel good about myself...

kadang2 rasa down because I still haven't figured out what my calling is in life..I read my friend's blog today...things rarely turn out how you expect them to do...usually taking you through a forest of thorns first...but she's gotten through her rough part in life and now has managed to find herself..nanka urayamashi pun ada..otona dah kawan2 aku skang kan..hayaku jibun wo mitsukaritai naa...

pagi tadi dpt call from sensei yang tantou shukatsu (sensei in charge of employment)..'u dah dapat kerja lom?' ... and I was like NO!!!... so what are you gonna do? ohh no...ape aku nak jawab ni..telling your friends and family what you're gonna do is one thing..nak cakap kat sensei hmmm...susah ar ckit.. sayang was on skype at the moment so he heard the whole conversation. I told my teacher ..balik Msia nanti I cari..he let it go at that..tapi still..I kinda felt like it was a lie..I'm not going back yet...and I couldn't be truthful bout that..what la..

back to feeling good about ourselves

jom kawan2

iki wo tsutte....
haaahh

be happy bout urselves and what you've accomplished in life so far


p.s: tgh happy coz minggu ni i managed to stop myself from buying anything the jihanki...haha..it's an addiction