a little time for myself....

phew... a little time for myself....skrg nk ngadap pasokon bkn main nye susah...kwn2 jgn tertipu ye ngan facebook/skype yg sentiasa o9 tu...that's just my pasokon that likes tu turn ITSELF on... I kid you not...kita tekan shut down dia leh hidup blk sendiri... this prob sejak masa kat nihon lg...it's nothing new...as long as it can still be turned on.... dell merahku ini lah yg akan tetap disisi...

skrg pun hubby dearie tgh tdokan wewefff dlm buai a.k.a endoi as he calls it... weweff..nama glamour harith hahaha...punyalah tak mo panggil nama cm tu konon nk panggil nama skema jek...tak jd....haha..tapi susah tul la...kita bg nama Harith with a 'th' kan but ada jgk people panggil dia haris with an 's'...seb baik haris pun maksud dia pun bagus...kdg tersasul panggil ariff...but that one pun has a good meaning...so all is well

anyway, i requested kt hubby...minggu ni tak mo blk kulim leh tak? i wanna stay home...wanna kemas2 since kontena finally sampai after 3 and a half months...wanna read my buku cte.. want to cook2...want to berkelah ngan colleagues kat bayan bay....haa...yg last tu main sebenarnya....gara2 geram hubby ikut dept dia gi mkn durian sorg2 n then bila dk2 blanking ajk i g...dia ada eval lak...so cannot go...sbb sapa nk handle harith masa I drive to blk pulau....klu dia ngamuk2 sorg2 kt blakang sapa nk soothe dia...so this time bila ada group ajak berkelah..i put down my foot and said I WANT TO GO....

n mlm ni ngadap blog sat...before I sit down with the bills to do my 家計簿 a hobby of mine since kat fukui lg...tp berbulan dah x gerak...x sempat2... so tak bley nk track our expenses... i used to call this hobby 'main2 excel' when skype ngan hubby and he asked me what i was doing.... tp bukan makin terror pun pki excel...kt ctu gaks...still a lot more to learn...

work is as usual...work....ada it's up and downs... but the more i get used to it...the more i realise i need to learn...baru dpt satu ...dr satu tu you nmpk 10 lg yg u kena tau... i wonder..klu 1st job as QA..lps ni klu i kaisha len stuck as QA lg kai? ohhh my....

that's all for now kot...nk pi wat gantt chart....

hubby's new toy....

hubby's got a new toy....his new iphone 4...dah lama dh dpt tp skang br nak cite skit about that 'thing'...u should have seen him the day we went to the softbank shop to pick it up.....dlm kete tu dia dah sibuk nak pasang the cover we bought earlier that day dekat yamada denki...tak sempat2 nak balik umah dulu...takut calar datte...masa tu gelak je la kan haha....

then bila sampai rumah he made me put the protective cover on the screen... i'm not good with sagyo2 yang komakai ni...but he insisted so buat jugak la.....n then i did the unthinkable... i accidentally dropped the 'thing'...aiyoyo...you should have seen his face...tergamam...dia punya lah nak jaga benda tu n i dropped it....i dropped it....aisehhhh...

later that night we went over to the boys place...sbb ada org tu nak berguru...then came the excitement over the apps n games n what not kan...i admit saya pun jd muchuu jap...

i wasn't until later that i started feeling this slight resentment towards the thing....as you all know my hubby spends a lot of time at lab kan...so the litlle amount of time that i have to talk to him is usually before we sleep kan...well sejak ada that 'thing'...dia main game on the bed...mcm mane nak pillow talk kan....can anybody seriously tell me that they won't feel even the slightest ache to want to throw that 'thing' away...or perhaps lock it up sampai esok pagi? can you?

baru skrg i understand how my cousins very sweet wife pun bley rasa nk baling her husband's PS2..same thing different gadget...so a liitle advice to the guys out there...we get that you want to get rid of your stress..and we get that new toys are really exciting...but our patience has a limit..and if that 'thing' takes away even a little bit of  what little precious time that we get out of your hectic lives...even the most understanding wife would get a little pissed.....

hubby's back...happy mode....heeee

yess hubby deary dah selamat pulang dr spring8.....tmpt buat jikken dia yang kat kobe tu....lama lak perginya kali ni...9 days...patutnya balik hari ahad ritu tp kena enchou.... whatever ever la kan...janji dia sudah pulang weeeeee......

b4 dia pergi ritu dia dh ajak mkn luar hr dia balik nanti...so today mmg tak masak pape la...i had tuna sandwich for lunch and teatime which consisted of a slice of bread spread with nutella...hidup bujang la katakan...x berasap langsung dapur....hahaha

igt nak try this restaurant which sells tamago ryouri (food based on eggs)...tp sampai2 sana rupanya hari khamis tu hari teikyubi dia....uhh hampa....kedai sebelah dia pun tutup...so kitorang gi lah kedai sebelah sebelah dia....happy valley.....dah kata happy mode kena makan kat happy valley lah gamaknya...

habis2 mkn hubby deary yang 'workaholic' tu saya hantar balik ke lab...yes people baru balik brapa jam dah ke lab semula dia tu...sabar je laa....hahaha...i'll be heading back there in an hours time to pick him up...and kitorang nak cr cikedes...jyajyang..ntah you know junk food...sbb dia nk tgk bola mlm ni kul 3...nihon vs denmark....

until later...
 adios people

saturday has come again.....

as hubby dearest has promised.... we get to eat out at least once a week....and I get to choose...

I felt like Indian food.... so he said..let's go try the 'other' place...which is bit further away...and so we left after maghrib and took the bypass (so you get the idea...jauh kan) only to get there to see that it was closed...so we made a u-turn and headed for Devi


Devi is an Indian Restaurant that also sells Halal goods..so alang2 dah ke sana ingatkan nak top-up rations lah kan....zannen...ape yang di cari tak ada...

tapi tak pe...cause i got my Indian food...hubby went for the Tandori set as usual and I...I chose the vege set again...bukan diet ye people..it's just that i'm picky when it comes to chicken meat...breast meat jyanai to kuwanai....and the Tandori sets are always drumsticks...so instead of chicken i had the sheek kebab...yes...mutton...and since i ordered vegetarian...the curries were also vegetarian and i got to choose 2...so i had paneer saag ( cheese and spinach curry) and dhal curry...paneer saag tu sedap you...haha...better then aloo gobi anytime...

the portions are big...so naan sekepin pun kenyang gila kay....

so because today hubby dah belanja ...esok kena masak besh untuk dia ...hahaha...nak nasi lemak datte .... ashita hayaku okinai to naaaa....

day two....

today baru day two sebagai full-time housewife without hubby around and i'm already bored...
yes i know ...banyak kerja yang boleh saya bereskan tapi naka naka gak lah bosan dia....but still okay compared to bosan masa baru2 masuk lab last year...

oh and yes...today is also the second day jaga alaudin a.k.a. adik....so far so good...masing2 still learning to get used to each other... and since adik is just 1and 1/2 months old ...most of his time is spent sleeping....which accounts to me having a lot of free time....and hence me getting bored...

so the last 2 days i've been recipe hunting...going through food blogs.... and today surveying international food shops aroung the nagoya area... selama ni dok order barang from baticrom and azhar je...but they only cater to ingredients for the asian region... so now for ingredients more to the italian, mexican and other ethnic cooking....and i found a website which ships from kobe and the states....tapi pricey lah skit....

baru 2 days but so far so good...learning adik's schedule has alowed to cook mcm2...last night laksa penang and blueberry panna cotta.... today baked chicken, spinach and white sauce spaghetti and for dessert condensed milk pound cake...

esok nye menu ape plak ek...

6 and 3...

yes...we have passed the 6 month mark...time flies when you're happy huh..i can vouch for that

it's when it's tough that it seems to crawl....like before my presentation..2 days felt like 2 weeks...like tomorrow will probably slow too....can't wait to be by his side again...i know that sounds cheesy...but hey we've been living apart...

on a different note...to all my friends out there who are facing the final hours preparing for your presentations...writing their thesis and what not...gambatte ne...

i climbed the mountain....now comes the descent...

yes...we all know going uphill is the tough part....but down also has it's 'perks'...

now i am at the phase where we have to clean up after ourselves....kemas data ....整理 JABEEnye
単位...and the task which i am really not looking forward to...kemas bilik....hahaha

those who know me know i'm not the neatest person...and in the past few weeks i've taken the term 'macam kandang dotdotdot' to a whole new level...so severe i didn't want hubby and help pack my stuff this weekend for fear that he would faint right there on the spot...

today was spent howling used cardboard boxes from my lab...and later of to mitsuwa for mei-chan's supplies...tonight after dinner...i will force myself to get down to business...

tomorrow...i plan to spend the day at lab...kemas bg lawa fail2 data...bg senang org lepas2 ni nak check..delete personal bookmarks in the com...mainly facebook and blogger...hahaha...and yes sokutei seribu kali those little magnesium pieces(not looking forward to that)...

last weekend was spent at hubby's place...renshu timing...susah tau...if he says he's coming back at 12.30...everything has to be ready and warm by then...challenge lah jugak for me who's only been cooking for myself for the last 5 years...

we spent saturday at jusco hamamatsu...jalan2 all the way to shizuoka just to shop...huhu...the only thing i bought for myself was 2 shirts that was on sale...the rest prezzies kay....had fun pilih baby stuff...ramai friends giving birth in the few months to come....masa kat gap...pening sgt coz all the stuff was so cute..last2 i made hubby pilih....green ..he picked green...oklah cute sgt that thing...so tak pelah

the only thing is i still haven't satisfied my craving to shop....gaman syaz gamannnnnnn....

somebody stole our wedding presents...boohooohoooo

it happened a few weeks ago...called home and found out..

ada pencuri masuk ...through the front kitchen door yg mengadap main road tu....dulu masa umah baru siap someone tried to masuk through the window next to it...tp fortunately masa tu kitorg tak pindah sana agi...

it happened on a sunday..of all days..in broad daylight...tak ke pelik...weekend yang biasanya org kat rumah tu lah dia pilih nak pecah rumah...thank God everyone was out...it chills me even to think abut what would have happened kalau ada sape2 kat rumah...since majority penghuni rumah tu females... the funny thing is my dearest hubby, was thinking in a different way...he was thinking about how to detain the pencuri if he was home at the time...men!...sheeeesh...

our neighbour was baffled since he was at home and didn't hear a thing..... according to the detective  four other houses were robbed that day in that area..and the funny thing is ...they said they were in the area...scouting...and still the robbery occured...huhuhu...benda dah nak jadi kan...

anyway....they rummaged through our closets..throwing our clothes in a  heap on the floor...and my mum said she didn't have the strentgh to clean my room just yet but that after looking through our things, she  found that some of our wedding presents were gone....since the stuff was still in their packaging.. i guess the thieves figured they could sell them....bedsheets, towels, blah blah blah..... i'm just glad they didn't take the songkets. tapi sedih jugak lah... especially the towels that my seniors gave us that were monogrammed with our names and little notes of advice was stolen...urghhh geram tak reti baca ke org tu...ada nama saya kat atas towel tu...pun nak ambik ke...

my mum...well some jewllery she left at home including my bracelet that i asked her to repair...and some of mums brooches...(which my mum thinks shows that one of the theives was a women...coz her brooches yang org tu tak berkenan ada kat dlm bathroom depan cermin...suggesting that the person was trying them out)...and what made my mum really mad ...was her prized perfumes...one of which my daddy just gave her for her birthday...

maa naaa....all in all i was pretty shocked ...since i have never actually been robbed.... and mad...can't forget that part ...i was mad...but Mr.A said...rather than being mad, wouldn't it be better if you prayed that they never do it again...

and that's when i new i married the right man

3 weeks and 3 days later....part two...the first advice

3 weeks 3 days later....busy pikir menu raya...ape yang ok ek? kena factor in yang bilik ari ada satu dapur je...n only one small periuk and one small fry pan..guess i'll have to bring the pots and pans and bla bla bla la kot...n then kena pikir pasal time...if raya on sunday..and kitorg bertolak from fukui on saturday..leaves with how much time to cook....pikir2 plan2..

my first raya as a wife...I'm TRYING to do it right... even made kuih raya tau (no kuih tunjuk2...hahaha)..but they didn't turn out that well.... tp dah A mintak Almond London kan... he's a chocolate lover...i'm NOT... i don't even like almond london..it's the one biscuit raya kat umah that i NEVER touch... so A better eats his fill of them...comot looking and all

anyway back to part two...the first advice

so it was the day after we arrived in Malaysia... A was staying in Shah Alam at R's house for a couple of days.. nak last minute shopping..the final barang hantaran...my shoes..
kitorg dah round the nearest outlets Nagashima 'twice' , Toki and so on ...still tak jumpa yang berkenan di hati..

last2 cari kat sogo je la... my parents drove me there..mula2 nak suruh naik komuter je..tp sbb nana pun nak beli kasut..so babah pun ckp everyone goes... so seme org pun ikut la..

so pusing2 sogo..disappointed...tak banyak choice..naik second floor..lg tak lawa..was contemplating on KLCC　or midvalley...last2 turun balik first floor...skali nana dah beli my first choice....cheh...melepas lah plak...n then ended up try kasut in front of the whole family..

n then babah goes and whispers to A... cakap je lawa..nanti sampai petang kat sini..
n there it goes 'the first advice' from father to son... kalau ikut shopping...just tell them what they want to hear....hahahaha

by the way.. i wore those shoes masa balik to japan...and habis melecet..tu lah sapa suruh tak break them in dulu kan.. my bad

2 weeks and 6 days later....part one ..the journey home

even to this day it feels surreal...i'm married...i'm a wife...



been busy these last few weeks sampai tak dan dan nak post an entry...what with catching up at lab..and running to and fro from toyohashi...

so here's a re-cap of the events b4 the big day...
A and I left Japan on the 9th...plan asalnya nak naik densha kul 4 pg to Kansai...but after some deliberations and recalculations...we decided it would be cheaper and less hassling to just drive there (note that it's only cheaper if it were more than 1 person and you drive there on weekends coz highway 1000yen je) kalau tak..better take the train guys...anyway left Fukui at 2 am and we arrived there around 8...wasn't supposed to take that long..tapi jam terukkkkk sgt (for Japan standards) and I stopped to nap..anyway got there and handed over wheelie chan to the pak cik parking who'll be taking care of her for the next 13 days...he drove us over to the terminal and the usual pre-flight hussle commenced...dah check-in br leh relax...yeay..

fly fly fly

and finally we reached Malaysia...klakar tak yang only Malaysians were spooked about the H1N1 thing...the japs tak bother pun nak put on masks or whatever...but taking precaution is important don't you think... guess what my family was betting on wheteher i'd be wearing a mask or not....hahaha

anyway...A had his liquid stuff in my large luggage bag so we headed off to the side so we could retrieve it...and masa tu lah the tiny kunci nak hilang......whaaaaaattttt...cuak gile kat situ...cr cr cr punyalah cr... 15 minutes and 1 torn bag later barulah jumpa...woishhhhh...fiuhhh

it was the first time A met my parents....he was waiting for R to pick him up..so my dad decided that he'd park and we'd have a light meal together...just to pass the time...everything was going well i guess...it being his first encounter and everything...bet his heart was just thumping away huh....dia nye turn la plak...the first time i met his mom i counldn't sleep soundly for to nights prior to the meeting....hahaha

anyway part 1 is over...and i need to get back to my lab work...

kandou sat

i wasn't expecting it....not from them

hari ni pergi lab anticipating another day dalam fukui dai nye oven...a.k.a. bengkel kat hujung sana tu...dtg2 my senior wasn't here yet...go fihure..and i thought i was late..

lepak lepak sat...tetibe..suzuki san (dak M2 yang slalunya tak berkata pape..tp great at what he does) panggil..'Syazwani san..anno..kore ha minna kara no kekkon iwai desu' (Syazwani..ni ada sikit wedding present from us)..speechless aku..from kitorg seme...sensei sekali datte..i wasn't expecting it..not from these japs..yg seme nye mania...mania PSP, mania soccer, mania softball, mania Digimon, mania anime, mania buat kerja ulang2 pun ada.

kandou sekejap aku...

tanoshimi nk bukak dgn ari nanti...along with urs aan...been saving it ..

wedding kompangs

let's just be sure that there won't be any bells around...kompangs however would do just nicely..



after being happily busy for the weekend and ignoring blog reading and my research, i finally took a glimpse at my dashboard today, reading past entries of my fellow friends ...



a dear friend aan wrote about wedding bells and such.. writting about yours truly, touching my heart in ways some of you can just imagine...



yes, it's been years, years since i have done the crazy dance (some of you who have never seen the 'real' me would be shocked), but she still remembers. she remembers the stories of my daddy dearest who up to this day still mesin rumput , does the gardening and the laundry with his shirt tucked in (I've noticed that the only time he doesn't tuck it in is when he's wearing baju batik). About the joke, i think he's forgotten about that. It turns out that my siblings are more you know 'open' about stuff than I am..so he's probably used to it. hahaha



aan was there when it all started between me and my sayang..some could say that's how it started. That summer when aan and the gang decided to pay a visit to Yuge, simultaneously throwing Ari and myself into the preparations for their arrival.



who would have guessed that 2++ years later that this is where we would all stand. I sometimes see myself floating quietly in calm waters while my friends speed by in motor boats, others swimming at speeds that would shame the world record holders. Chasing theirs dreams, in ways only they know how.



Everyone has a path to follow. That is now clear to me. Not everyone can do what others do and enjoy it. Everything I'm saying might be atarimae , but I didn't see it as thus when I was younger. I thought if you can do it, I can too. That might be true, but I now know my limitations, and my strong points. My parents say 'you're old enough to think on your own'. I'm trying my best to do that now.



I choose to marry at this point in my life. I have chosen to stay home for a year after I finish my degree while he finishes his masters. I have chosen to make the best out of that time.



People may disagree with this decision, saying I could do more with my life in that one year. I'll be behind my batchmates career wise. That's all I'm hearing nowadays. Career, career, career. Someone says that I'm just tired. Trying to run away with settling for mediocre jobs with no challenges, saying I'll get bored after a few months. Imyself was once scared that my brain would just rust up and once I do try to enter the working world I'd be just that .. a rusted tin-man. Well...every decision has it's risks...And I have chosen



It was different in high school..everyone was going through the same thing and you could compare. Nowadays, all I can do is watch, and lend an ear to my dear friends, whatever road you might choose, be it the road to higher learning in Malaysia,Japan, US, UK or anywhere else, be it jobs in Dubai, be it family life, super careers in new sciences and groud breaking research..ooen shiteimasu yo..zutto..even lumpy people are watching..dearest friends..



My only wish is that i do not fade..that I do not get caught up in my new life that I forget you dear friends.

dup dap dup dap....

bukak calendar today...another 46 days to go

all this while S asyik tanya the same thing everytime he sees me...ko tak takut ke..and the answer I usually give him is 'ask me that again bila tinggal seminggu ke 3 hari ke b4 the big day'..sekarang I feel fine...joyfully awaiting the moment when finally become man and wife...It's a big step...kahwin ni bukan main main..it's a big business...and even though some might look at me and think I'm treating the matter as something small and simple ,something I agreed to on a whim..well, it's not...I have thought about the matter over over..weighing the pros and cons...and putting aside my list of things I want to do before I get married and so on...when I say putting aside I mean it..I have not thrown them away..I'll just change the list name to 'my list of things to do when the time is right'..haha...I thought some of them will be unachievable after I get married, but a friend, dear Safra has opened my eyes and shown me a road which I may choose to take one day..As for my sayang..I have talked to him about these lists and says he will support me when I choose to undertake them once again...sayang my sayang...haha...

anyways...bukan the big day je ada count down...thesis pun ada...as days go by and our time shortens it becomes unnerving...and baffling...I've been reading the blogs of my friends who are at he moment going through the same thing..some have it worst then others...everyone writting about their problems and how they are dealing with it...tricks to cope with stress and anger...I read and I remind myself not to be too negative (I'm always complaining about something)..my lab is one of the more lenient ones...

my sensei recently gave a warning to me and my sempai...get it done in two weeks he says....or else it won't be done in time for your presentation...dup dap dup dap lagi

td masa zemi he said we're gonna have chukan happyo (mid term presentation) where we are supposed to show what we have done so far and another one in august....i don't have anything to show for now..since what we have been showing him every week since may has not been good enough...dup dap dup dap lagi..

i dodged a bullet today..well not literally...sensei tetiba ada outstation..so my turn to present is next week..時間が一週間伸びたんだー...haha..happy nyer saya

well...the dup dap dup daps are increasing in speed...maybe i should take a page out of aan's book and enjoy life ..flaws and all..

as for the 46 days to go...
my whole family is getting the preparations done...a million thanks to my mami dearest, who accompanied me masa pilih kain, who has patiently made my bunga pahar ( i repeat MADE them herself), went out and found a venue, chosen my reception menu and my wedding cards (which baru siap), and a lot more while recuperating from her painful back condition.

thanks tu babah for putting up with mami, i know it must not have been easy, and contributing the idea for the montage, i thought your silence meant you didn't care, actually you were silently watching the proceedings, and supporting mami all the way, i love your idea for the montage , more than you know

thanks to nana.. who is undertaking the montage project, and your openness about the whole hing...

and thanks to syira...the one who gets more excited then me sometimes..which is a good thing..i tend to be too quiet most of the time...

a world of tahnks for you people...love you lots..muahh

???what r they up to???

i got a call from my sayang at 2.05 am last nite...dah tdo sedap masa tu ...so when i got to lab this morning what was going through my head was ' is this for real?' or was it just a dream

he said he got an offline message from his sis..saying my parents are going over to his house tomorrow...meaning TODAY...why do I know nothing about this?????

the three of them mami, babah, n syira...what are they up to?? normal ke parents going over to the future in-laws's without the bride and groom knowing???

94

94 days to go....

how do i feel? pejam celik pejam celik...tinggal brapa bulan je lagi....hmmmm

a lot has been going on..but i haven't been able to get things back on track...usahkan di cakap hal kat kenkyu..kerja kerja rumah tu pun...hmm let's just say everything is in a mess..mcm mana ni 94 days to go syaz..lepas ni u have to pick after another person as well..double the mess to clean up tau...hye yahhhh..dah lah dua dua pun messy...

hopefully i'll change...but 94 days isn't much...a lot of things to accomplish...

what's happening at lab...well i finally got my research theme...buat wheels from magnesium...org dgr mcm impact dia tak lah se gah my previous research...but hey this time i have to design something...dulu banyak main chemicals, microscopes, 60 degree water baths..this time main with hot metals, solid works, various types of lubricants, machines that can bear hundreds of tons of force and very very hot stuff...

since last week was golden week..there wasn't much going on but on friday..gang..i got randomly picked as the first to present for our zemi (a class where we the students, take turns 'happyo'ing (presenting) topics picked out of a text book or thesis - varies according to lab senseis). aaahhh..yabei..dah lah banyak shiki (equations)..

so ahad and monday bertungkus lumus lah buat shoumei (proving) kenapa shiki tu jd cam tu...
masa ni lah terasa otak dah berkarat... nasib baik fukuyama-san (M1 senior that's in charge of me) tu orgnya baik n tolong ajar sikit.. tuesday pg b4 zemi g jumpa sensei..tanya soalan siap2...haha

sekali masa zemi ..sensei did all the talking..one and a half hours and he finished 2 bab..sasuga lecturer da ne...so my turn kena tunda next week..another few extra days for me to migaku (kilatkan) my very berkarat brain..and get the shikis perfect for next zemi...

other then that..kena pikir pasal design for the tanzou (forge) , next monday kena tunjuk.. solid works tutorials, blah blah blah...

ni nak panggil dart ni...bibik for hire ...bleh tlg handle my house.. sejam brapa?