dup dap dup dap....

bukak calendar today...another 46 days to go

all this while S asyik tanya the same thing everytime he sees me...ko tak takut ke..and the answer I usually give him is 'ask me that again bila tinggal seminggu ke 3 hari ke b4 the big day'..sekarang I feel fine...joyfully awaiting the moment when finally become man and wife...It's a big step...kahwin ni bukan main main..it's a big business...and even though some might look at me and think I'm treating the matter as something small and simple ,something I agreed to on a whim..well, it's not...I have thought about the matter over over..weighing the pros and cons...and putting aside my list of things I want to do before I get married and so on...when I say putting aside I mean it..I have not thrown them away..I'll just change the list name to 'my list of things to do when the time is right'..haha...I thought some of them will be unachievable after I get married, but a friend, dear Safra has opened my eyes and shown me a road which I may choose to take one day..As for my sayang..I have talked to him about these lists and says he will support me when I choose to undertake them once again...sayang my sayang...haha...

anyways...bukan the big day je ada count down...thesis pun ada...as days go by and our time shortens it becomes unnerving...and baffling...I've been reading the blogs of my friends who are at he moment going through the same thing..some have it worst then others...everyone writting about their problems and how they are dealing with it...tricks to cope with stress and anger...I read and I remind myself not to be too negative (I'm always complaining about something)..my lab is one of the more lenient ones...

my sensei recently gave a warning to me and my sempai...get it done in two weeks he says....or else it won't be done in time for your presentation...dup dap dup dap lagi

td masa zemi he said we're gonna have chukan happyo (mid term presentation) where we are supposed to show what we have done so far and another one in august....i don't have anything to show for now..since what we have been showing him every week since may has not been good enough...dup dap dup dap lagi..

i dodged a bullet today..well not literally...sensei tetiba ada outstation..so my turn to present is next week..時間が一週間伸びたんだー...haha..happy nyer saya

well...the dup dap dup daps are increasing in speed...maybe i should take a page out of aan's book and enjoy life ..flaws and all..

as for the 46 days to go...
my whole family is getting the preparations done...a million thanks to my mami dearest, who accompanied me masa pilih kain, who has patiently made my bunga pahar ( i repeat MADE them herself), went out and found a venue, chosen my reception menu and my wedding cards (which baru siap), and a lot more while recuperating from her painful back condition.

thanks tu babah for putting up with mami, i know it must not have been easy, and contributing the idea for the montage, i thought your silence meant you didn't care, actually you were silently watching the proceedings, and supporting mami all the way, i love your idea for the montage , more than you know

thanks to nana.. who is undertaking the montage project, and your openness about the whole hing...

and thanks to syira...the one who gets more excited then me sometimes..which is a good thing..i tend to be too quiet most of the time...

a world of tahnks for you people...love you lots..muahh