wedding kompangs

let's just be sure that there won't be any bells around...kompangs however would do just nicely..



after being happily busy for the weekend and ignoring blog reading and my research, i finally took a glimpse at my dashboard today, reading past entries of my fellow friends ...



a dear friend aan wrote about wedding bells and such.. writting about yours truly, touching my heart in ways some of you can just imagine...



yes, it's been years, years since i have done the crazy dance (some of you who have never seen the 'real' me would be shocked), but she still remembers. she remembers the stories of my daddy dearest who up to this day still mesin rumput , does the gardening and the laundry with his shirt tucked in (I've noticed that the only time he doesn't tuck it in is when he's wearing baju batik). About the joke, i think he's forgotten about that. It turns out that my siblings are more you know 'open' about stuff than I am..so he's probably used to it. hahaha



aan was there when it all started between me and my sayang..some could say that's how it started. That summer when aan and the gang decided to pay a visit to Yuge, simultaneously throwing Ari and myself into the preparations for their arrival.



who would have guessed that 2++ years later that this is where we would all stand. I sometimes see myself floating quietly in calm waters while my friends speed by in motor boats, others swimming at speeds that would shame the world record holders. Chasing theirs dreams, in ways only they know how.



Everyone has a path to follow. That is now clear to me. Not everyone can do what others do and enjoy it. Everything I'm saying might be atarimae , but I didn't see it as thus when I was younger. I thought if you can do it, I can too. That might be true, but I now know my limitations, and my strong points. My parents say 'you're old enough to think on your own'. I'm trying my best to do that now.



I choose to marry at this point in my life. I have chosen to stay home for a year after I finish my degree while he finishes his masters. I have chosen to make the best out of that time.



People may disagree with this decision, saying I could do more with my life in that one year. I'll be behind my batchmates career wise. That's all I'm hearing nowadays. Career, career, career. Someone says that I'm just tired. Trying to run away with settling for mediocre jobs with no challenges, saying I'll get bored after a few months. Imyself was once scared that my brain would just rust up and once I do try to enter the working world I'd be just that .. a rusted tin-man. Well...every decision has it's risks...And I have chosen



It was different in high school..everyone was going through the same thing and you could compare. Nowadays, all I can do is watch, and lend an ear to my dear friends, whatever road you might choose, be it the road to higher learning in Malaysia,Japan, US, UK or anywhere else, be it jobs in Dubai, be it family life, super careers in new sciences and groud breaking research..ooen shiteimasu yo..zutto..even lumpy people are watching..dearest friends..



My only wish is that i do not fade..that I do not get caught up in my new life that I forget you dear friends.

dup dap dup dap....

bukak calendar today...another 46 days to go

all this while S asyik tanya the same thing everytime he sees me...ko tak takut ke..and the answer I usually give him is 'ask me that again bila tinggal seminggu ke 3 hari ke b4 the big day'..sekarang I feel fine...joyfully awaiting the moment when finally become man and wife...It's a big step...kahwin ni bukan main main..it's a big business...and even though some might look at me and think I'm treating the matter as something small and simple ,something I agreed to on a whim..well, it's not...I have thought about the matter over over..weighing the pros and cons...and putting aside my list of things I want to do before I get married and so on...when I say putting aside I mean it..I have not thrown them away..I'll just change the list name to 'my list of things to do when the time is right'..haha...I thought some of them will be unachievable after I get married, but a friend, dear Safra has opened my eyes and shown me a road which I may choose to take one day..As for my sayang..I have talked to him about these lists and says he will support me when I choose to undertake them once again...sayang my sayang...haha...

anyways...bukan the big day je ada count down...thesis pun ada...as days go by and our time shortens it becomes unnerving...and baffling...I've been reading the blogs of my friends who are at he moment going through the same thing..some have it worst then others...everyone writting about their problems and how they are dealing with it...tricks to cope with stress and anger...I read and I remind myself not to be too negative (I'm always complaining about something)..my lab is one of the more lenient ones...

my sensei recently gave a warning to me and my sempai...get it done in two weeks he says....or else it won't be done in time for your presentation...dup dap dup dap lagi

td masa zemi he said we're gonna have chukan happyo (mid term presentation) where we are supposed to show what we have done so far and another one in august....i don't have anything to show for now..since what we have been showing him every week since may has not been good enough...dup dap dup dap lagi..

i dodged a bullet today..well not literally...sensei tetiba ada outstation..so my turn to present is next week..時間が一週間伸びたんだー...haha..happy nyer saya

well...the dup dap dup daps are increasing in speed...maybe i should take a page out of aan's book and enjoy life ..flaws and all..

as for the 46 days to go...
my whole family is getting the preparations done...a million thanks to my mami dearest, who accompanied me masa pilih kain, who has patiently made my bunga pahar ( i repeat MADE them herself), went out and found a venue, chosen my reception menu and my wedding cards (which baru siap), and a lot more while recuperating from her painful back condition.

thanks tu babah for putting up with mami, i know it must not have been easy, and contributing the idea for the montage, i thought your silence meant you didn't care, actually you were silently watching the proceedings, and supporting mami all the way, i love your idea for the montage , more than you know

thanks to nana.. who is undertaking the montage project, and your openness about the whole hing...

and thanks to syira...the one who gets more excited then me sometimes..which is a good thing..i tend to be too quiet most of the time...

a world of tahnks for you people...love you lots..muahh

diorang tak perasan i wasn't there....hahahaha

once a month budak2 kikai (mech) kena buat 草むしり(gotong royong) around kawasan sekolah...
senior dah cakap semlm and the day before...kul 12 g センター(stands for center- but in our case it refers to the plaec where all the big machines are) gi angkat komputer katanya...and then kul 1 ada gotong royong datte...

and me being me..was swept up in the preparations nak grk gi yokohama mlm ni...dh lah pagi td bangun lambat ...gi kelas swoh swah swoh swah idung..(yeah my nose gets runny in the morning)..zenzen tak pay attention to class insei (dak masters) tu..and i was the only one lak tu..dak b4 (bachelor 4 year) sekor pun tak mai kelas...so hbs je kelas tu yours truly ni ngan best ne pecut balik umah nak kemas brg (tu lah semlm tak pack siap2) haha...kemas kitchen(can't leave the kitchen cm tu je..dah summer ni..nati balik ada big mess)..pas tu g kombini bayar ticket bas...tup tup dah 2.30 pm...arghhh yabbei...maa ii ka

so i was rushing to lab right..guess what...kenapa banyak sangat beg plastic berisi rumput ni?...ohhhh s****...i forgot..gotong royong..tp dh tak de org..dah hbs ke...double s****...mcm mana nak face dak kenkyu ni...

bukak pintu lab terus bow n ckp...'sumimasen..wasuremashita...kyou nanka atta yo ne...chou wasureta'..senior M2(masters second year) gelak je..dak2 len pun...my senior M1 je masam..as always....

when all the seniors left masuk bengkel and what not..i turned to my fellow b4's and asked them..'did they say anything?'..and guess what they said' ii yo...sebenarnya...kitorg tak prsn pun you tak de masa gotong royong and angkat computer tu....lg pun kitorg tak g class pagi td..so..kosong kosong la ek'...hahah..

diorg tak perasan i wasn't there...is that good or bad?



p.s.:..hari ni seme org cabut blk awal..even my senior M1 ..mezurashi naaa...seme org yasumi kibun da ne

progress

progress for the sake of progress should be stopped...

anyone care to explain?

let's talk about something nice today...

let's talk about something nice today...

let me divert my attention to nice things so that i can calm down...
let's talk about the angin sepoi sepoi bahasa that was oh sooo soothing masa tgh tunggu S td..
let's talk about the feeling of food going into an empty stomache...
let's talk about arriving home and putting down the schoolbag in a corner and lying down and think about nothing for awhile...
let's talk about getting in the shower and letting all the tensions of the day flow down the drain with the water...
let's talk about getting to see him this weekend...

let's talk about something nice...

long time no glimpse into lumpkins life.....

esok chukan (mid terms), meeting with sensei (second time sbb sensei was not happy with our first one on monday)....
pg td kenkyu shoukai (intro to my lab) for budak first year..
ptg ni 6.00 ptg ~ seminar...

nak update blog...no time..patutnya study skang ni..but i'm taking a break..
so many things have happened these last few weeks...dak dak fukui kerjanya weekend je ada something going on...last saturday was the kenduri kesyukuran budak yonnen(fourth year)..kenduri kesyukuran dapat naik final year...baru naik..huhu..belum leh grad lagi...

a lot of 'nasihat's were given to the younger ones..and so on and so forth..had a fun time jumping on this huge white thing..dah almost 24 pun nak main jump2 cm bdk2..but it's fun ok...

pg td nye kenkyu shokai...hmmm..not fun..stay up smlm to get ready for it until 3 am..pg td bangun sambung prep lg..and today hisahiburini..masuk lab on time kay...hurray to me..why not so fun? my senior suka change the things i do last minute...lg 2 minutes nak happyo dia leh suruh tukar genkou (script)... aiseh..kalau saya nak happyo in malay tak pe r gak..ini japanese k..u want me to goreng ayat there n then..ada kot amongst you guys out there who can do that...but well let's just say i'm not one of them..

today ada 6 groups budak fist year..after each of the first three groups mesti ada something my senior nak i change...urghhh..that's why it was not fun..so for the first years yg tak fhm ape yang saya cuba sampaikan td..sorry ekkk...

well next week ada another three groups..and my senior is changing the presentation scheme again ( no surprise there).. don't mistake me..he's a nice guy..just suka tukar fiiran last minute...and not good at telling me what he wants..tu je..arghh ape ni..habs resolution tu stop being negative...

maa maa..one step a day kanaa...

ijyou watashino happyou wo owarasete itadakimasu...

???what r they up to???

i got a call from my sayang at 2.05 am last nite...dah tdo sedap masa tu ...so when i got to lab this morning what was going through my head was ' is this for real?' or was it just a dream

he said he got an offline message from his sis..saying my parents are going over to his house tomorrow...meaning TODAY...why do I know nothing about this?????

the three of them mami, babah, n syira...what are they up to?? normal ke parents going over to the future in-laws's without the bride and groom knowing???